-=[8th Jan 2004, Thursday]=-
Feeling: very hurt, very sad; venue: a neater computer place
So sad. While on de phone, the entire trauma came back fresh into my head. All the feelings of fear and the mental breakdown came back so freshly. EVERYTHING IS SO SCARY. Actually the word ‘scary’ and ‘fear’ is just an understatement to what went thru. I really dunno the exact words to describe it. But it is so. I felt so alone. But of coz. NOBODY can carry the burden and fear. Only I alone can. Just like as in LOTR, nobody can carry the burden of the ring except Frodo. God can ease my pain. God knows exactly how I feel and what I went thru. I believe and I know that God put me thru that trauma for a real purpose. By going thru that trauma, I am also being broken down completely so that I God can fill me with his presence again. THANK YOU GOD!!
Jianming said by listening to the HillSong cd, I am doing a mind therapy. I felt very hurt. Just as hurt as wad dat other person said dat I was fake to cry in service. Everybody connect to God in different ways. Why cant I get connected to God from the songs?!?!!?!??!
‘Amazing grace, how sweet the sound. That saved a wreck like me. I once was lost, but now I am found. Was blind but now I see’
xia0miLk scribbled at 2:37 am.
| THANK YOU LORD JESUS.. Dear Lord Jesus, THANK YOU for coming into my life, for saving me by YOUR GRACE, for loving me so infinitely, for bringing Joy into my life, for helping me in those trials and tribulations, comforting me when i am down, filling me up when i am empty. THANK YOU for all the blessings that you have showered into into my life in all forms and ways, the angels that you had sent into my life in all forms and relations(my family, students, #A-I frens, ncc frens, church friends, the DYSFUNKSHION peeps, my polytechnic pals and any other friends who have made a significant pact in my life). Dear Jesus, there are simply too many things for me to thank you about that i cant find the proper words to do so. But Lord, you know my heart :) Last but not least, THANK YOU FOR DYING ON THE CROSS FOR ME. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU MY LORD AND GOD. Amen. |
| ..::[About Me]::.. Anna Hee. 26th October. Singapore. Chinese. City-harvester. W185. Jaded. naive. simple-minded. docile. submissive. quick-tempered. quick to cool down. bad-tempered. stubborn. emotional. hurts easily. harmless. petite. peaceful. warm. passionate. loving. smiles 24/7. cheeky. playful. gets amuses easily. laughs easily. cry easily. fickle-minded. Loves GOD.babies.nature.crapping around.wasting time.red and pink colour.driving around leisurely.dogs.red roses.precious moments. Issey Miyake.Louis Vuitton. Hates drugs. Fears rats.mouse.lizards.heights. |
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