Interesting Bits...

-=[31st October 2004, Sunday]=-
feeling: amused venue: HOmey

Remember my neighbour's Anna-cannot-resist-cutie son, Archer ? Forgotten? It's OK! Just refer to the post ! Well I am soooooooooooooo infatuated with him that my digicam just clicked away non-stop just on him only. I managed to snap one which is way tooooo cute. See:

Convict - Pinkie PiG

-=[29th October 2004, Friday]=-
feeling: loved; venue: GOD blessed home

Oh no!! I have been captivated and am now a convict under Anna's custody! You see my tag! Dang~

I was just hanging around aimlessly in a particular shop when SueLynn spotted me, captivated me and stuffed me into this pinkish wrapper (wanting to suffocate me to death I suppose! *humph* Where is my piggy rights!) It is alllllllllllllllllllllll Eunice's fault. Why must she tell SueLynn that Anna likes Pink colour?? Why can't she say red which is actaully another of Anna'a favourite colour? If red was mentioned then she probably wont even notice me! *mumbles under pig's breath*

I was being used as a gift to Anna for her birthday, from her cell group W185. They celebrated for her, her birthday just now after service. Anna got so excited that she has even taken side and back portraits of mine. But of coz, I am now a convict. Those are my convict portraits...

Me in my tag

My sideview simply look like Andy Lau...........'s pet piG *Oink 0inK*

My backview reminds you of Chow Yuen Fatt in "God of Gambler" movie hor? Equally as stylo mylo Kopi-O! See my curly wurly tail sticking out?

I am now being confined in her NPC's tiny locker for good... to be taken out for a breather whenever Anna misses her cellgroup, or for sleeping, or for any form of comfort that she may need... regardless of emotional, physical or mental... Heh but I am glad of 1 thing... she loves me lah.

xia0miLk scribbled at 11:57 pm. (0) Tears of the bear

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Cheering Smses

-=[28th October 2004, Thursday]=-
feeling: Happy; venue: tpy

Hee hee yesterday was great.... First I recieved a good news from some smses in the late afternoon which really got me soooooooooo EXCITED and made my day.... I went to work smiling and grinning from side to side... Even Sazaly also could tell and asked me about it.

Then the nite's tour was great.... 2 msg only.. very relaxed.. recieved some more birthday wishes from more friends... Throughout the nite tour a few of my friends smsed me thoughout at least half the tour. One of them smsed me some stuffs that really made me soooooooooo happy still!! Hhmmm..... now I am at a lost... hhmmm.... left or right?? HHhhmmmmmmmmm

Tonight's night is just having a nice dinner with the #angry-innocence people... I Love them....

(Sms conversation with Nancy)
Nancy: "Char bor, what do you want for your birthday?"
Me: "I want you and everybody else whom I truly appreciates, to be genuinely happy inside."
Nancy: "............................"
Nancy: "Any other things other than me being happy inside?"
Me: "NOthing lah. Really. The gift had been given to me looooooonnnng time ago. All of your sincere friendships."
Nancy: "............................"
Nancy: "Any tangible things?"
Me: "Don't have. Don't have at all loh"
Nancy: "Just something lah"
Me: "Ok ok. I just want a nice dinner with you guys. That's all."
Nancy: "You sure??"
me: "Yah lah yah lah. Very correct."

Yeah and I mean it.... I am so blessed le. I had them with me as my friends for so many years le. I really treasure the times with them. I just want to spend time with them. It is more than enough. The laughter and joy they brought to me can never be bought. Just like mid-autumn festival. It is a meaningful festival for me. I just wanted to spend a nice time with them, eat some mooncakes together and perhaps tackle on some quizes (if available lah).

I don't need any material stuffs. For those that I really want, I can buy them myself. Just like my digicam. If I don't have the money to buy, then just tooooo bad for me loh!

Right now........ I just look forward to the outings that were planned.... hee hee heee...... first, the one that was planned out in Nov (which I shall not reveal it at all now. Perhaps when the picture comes out then you all can see it). I am gonna prepare great food just for it. It's gonna be a great day admiring the scenery, feeding the monkeys.... *blissful smile* ..... Secondly, it's the 2-days-1-night Kukup trip in Dec that I am gonna have with a few of the #angry-innocence people for a mere S$98. Lodging, meal, and transport all included in the cost. If any of you will like to join in do let me know yah... whoopieeeeeeeee

THANK YOU GOD For Breathing Life Into Me So Many Years Ago On This Day

-=[26th October 2004, Tuesday]=-
feeling: loved; venue: warm home

Today is THE DAY. But nopes I can't take leave coz of some airport exercise *grumbles*. But alright lah. It is a job. So if my job require me to do certain "sacrifices" like this which is actually very insignificant, it is alright with me. It has been a pretty relaxed day anyway.

Since the nite before, during mid-nite I recieve ALOT of sms wishing me le. Though I really can't sleep because of .......... lasted till way past mid-nite. But after that, again in the middle of the night, after a few sms from a particular friend, it really made me feel so much better. Then early morning I recieved even more smses. Especially from my cell group. All the way past till evening time or so, I recieved even more. Some came from my students! I feel LOVED. *swoon*

I miss my cell group. Miss attending service with them. Miss having cell group with them. Make-up cell and service is never the same as attending with your own. Though has only been like 2 weeks ago since I last attended with them, it felt sooooooooooo long ago since I last saw them. I have to take leave on saturday to attend cell with them. I miss them.........

Eunice's Gift to Anna

-=[24th October 2004, Sunday]=-
feeling: touched; venue:sleepyyyyy bed

It's WenZhong's birthday!!

-=[20th October 2004, Thursday]=-
feeling: zOmbie; Venue: in front of pc

Hee hee 20th October 2004 Thursday is my buddy, WenZhong's 26th birthday. Yups I didn't backdate the entry coz if I did so then the entry will be missed by many. I have been pretty tied up lately thus no time and inspiration to write...

xia0miLk scribbled at 10:19 pm. (0) Tears of the bear

Saturday, October 23, 2004

I Miss...

-=[23rd October 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: :( ; Venue: tpy lah

I Miss..... (In no order of favourites nor level of missing)

GOD..

Kids in school..

DE Dysfunkshion..

#angry-innocence..

Polytechnic kakis..

Buddies such as Christine, Tricia, Daven, Benjamin, Wilson, Eric, Melvin etc

I miss......... I misss..........

*sOb sob*.....

I GOT A PANASONIC LUMIX FX7!!!

-=[12th October 2004, Tuesday]=-
feeling: Ecstatic!!; Venue: my homeyyy

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee... I FINALLY GOT A DIGICAM!!! AND ITS PANASONIC LUMIX FX7!!

Isn't this baby simply so cool? 4 colours to choose from. It's supposedly to be shake-proof. I got the black one. So classic!!

This is the view from the front

This is the back view of the cam.

And this is the top view of it.

Initially I couldn't make up my mind between the Canon Ixus 430 and Panasonic FX7.. I spent 1 whole week pondering upon it. Both are equally so good! And of coz with some cons lah. (Nothing is perfect in this world. This inculdes human and electronic stuffs). The salesman recommended this FX7, saying that it is the most popular in the market now, it is selling like hot cakes, there is a hardware magazine comparing 5 brands of digicam of the same pixels (which includes Canon and Panasonic). But I was worried. Don't really dare to make up any decisions coz I am totally an IDIOT at techno stuffs. I consulted the techno-gadget-guru Rodney about it. He said he has to see it himself then know. So he kindly offered to go along to see it. So sweet of him right?!!???!!!!! ChongWai, the new guy in my team has the FX7. WOAH when I 1st heard it, I got so excited. For every single tour, I pestered and pestered and pestered and pestered him to bring it to work and let me try and decide on it..... hehehehe...

Finally I decided to pull along the techno-gadget-guru Rodney to go and view and make the purchase. I also needed some confirmation that the decision made is correct. Again it was very kind of him to entertain and agree to my last minute request for his presence at the polwel store. He also kindly gave me a wakeup call (It was my 1st off day and I didn't sleep at all the entire night before). But.......... I WAS STILL LATE!!! Yesh... I was supposed to be up at 2.00pm.. but I dozed off some more and slumbered till 3.19pm, when I just suddenly jumped up and realised that I WAS GONNA BE LATE!!!

I didn't think twice. Just jumped up, quick shower, grabbed a skirt and top, changed and left my place. (I didn't even comb my hair properly). Along the way in the cab just roughly pulled my hair apart. I feel SOooOOOooooo guilty to have made him wait. Must give him a treat.

Reached the place, looked at the 2 digicams. Played around with it abit. With blessings from the techno-gadget-guru Rodney, I made the non-life altering decision to get the FX7. The competition finally has a winner emerged.

The day's excitement ended off with a great dinner and non-stop laughing at White Chicks. Simply Great.... It's been a long while...

Ok let you all drool and hyperventilate over my digicam for the last time. Heeeeeeeeeeeee...

Signing off with lots of Love, The Rebonded Queen. *muackS*

Patriotic Bears

-=[10th October 2004, Sunday]=-
Feeling: stoned from work; Venue: what? where? why? HUH??????

Look at this 'From Me to You Bear', depicting my love for Singapore. (Note: Please refer to my entry on I Am Very Thankful To Be A Singaporean to get a clearer picture.)

Hee hee.... the bear in the white t-shirt was bought for me from my student aka good leader in cca aka good friend, Daven. He was actually doing his CIP hours selling that bear. I appeared and thus he got me the bear. Actually he didn't really got me the bear. He was asking me to buy, so I just cheekily mentioned "You buy for me lah" and thus he offered to pay for half the price, while I pay for the other half. SO sweet of him rite? It just so happened also that the day I met him, I was feeling very very very very sad... thus the bear and his presence cheered me up soooooooo much. THANK YOU DAVEN!!

Later on, together with Alex (yups he also helped to make me smile. THANK YOU ALEX!!) I saw the other bear in the Kalm's shop over at the basement of Takashimaya. I wanted the red one so very badly. The red t-shirt says " I LOVE SINGAPORE", and it makes up a pair anyway. But I was stingy. So I waited till the next payday and I went for it. Yah I will only buy it myself, I won't ask anybody else to buy for me. Simple, if I don't have de money, I will just not buy it. I don't believe in whining, making some puppy eyes and hope that some kind samaritan will buy for me. Nooooooooooooooooooo.

I LOVE the bears! I LOVE the bears! I LOVE the bears! I LOVE the bears!

What Colour Are You? (Amazingly Detailed and Accurate -- With Pics)

-=[7th October 2004, Thursday]=-
Feeling: flabbergasted; Venue: zzzz

Ok It's been a long time since I quized at Quizilla. SO here goes. By the way, Pink is onE of my fav colours, other than red. It is so sweet and girlish. I LOVE IT!!

HASH(0x8a6737c)

You are the color pink. As a beautiful and sweet
human, you are everybody's favorite person.
Healthy and energetic, you're often seen
spreading the happines. As an unusually
charming and sweet person, you're always ready
to comfort people who are down. You sympathize
with everyone, but not always yourself. Aside
from that, you are light-hearted and cheery.
And you make it your duty to make every cloud
have

What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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Halle Berry Knows Beauty Is Only Skin Deep

-=[4th October 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: generous and open; venue: zzzzz

I read the below verse from some magazine. It is the thoughts of Halle Berry. Thought that it sounded real meaningful, thus I just wanna share it with you people =)

[Being thought as a 'beautiful woman' has spared me nothing in life. No heartaches, no trouble. Beauty is essentially meaningless and it is always transitory]

Kinda true.... guess she has been bothered by problems of the heart.. such that she is very tired of alot of stuffs le... She just wants a normal life with no much of such problem I suppose..... and it is so true that beauty is only transitory. It changes over time. As we grow older, beauty also changes with time. Hrmz. The true beauty of a person lies within? But alas, very often it is the outer beauty that blocks out the inner beauty of a person to others. Not everybody can see through the screens and focus onto the inner beauty within. Well I do have 1 good fren who can =) His name is Tan Lip Seng.

Ok Ah Seng or Seng as I always call him, is a 21-yr-old guy who has always been a good friend in need. I knew him back then since 1999, again thru that useless radio thingy. He had always proved to be a very very very good friend. Always ready to help. Even in terms of financial though he himself needed some help! Nevertheless this friend has proven himself to be the 'friend in need is a friend indeed'. THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT FRIEND SENG. Ok back to his story.

Now Seng has never liked studying. He repeated sec3 and left school after failing his GCE 'N' level. After which he got jobs then entered NS. Despite constant nagging and reminders from other people and me on the importance of studies, he still don't wanna even take a hood about it... Until he met his current gf. Ok his current gf is like. 5years his senior? This makes her 26yrs old currently. As you know, women of this age has certain needs that a young guy his age can't provide (This is the exact excuse I gave to MH and it works!! heh Why issit I always seem to attract young boys!??!?!!?!!?? *mumbles to myself*). Such as stability, security, assurity etc. Well for her sake, he went back to studying!! OHMIGAWD!! NOW THAT IS WONDERFUL. Mind you, his gf is not some heavenly maiden fairy or something like that. Neither does she possess the CFM face or something along that line. Not at all. But yet he could look beyond the ulterior and size, and sees her inner beauty. Not only does he sees it, he changes for her! WOW that is so amazing!

The gal treats him real cool too actually. She knew that his hp has this problem of battery dying on him thus she bought this motorola hp just for him. As she was also supposed to be going over to China to work for a year, she purpsoely went down to this dunno-where-place to get a webcam for him so that they can see each other on the web every single day when she is over at China. Isn't she simply so sweet to him? Frankly speaking her inner beauty is very deep. Really. She can cook very well, is sweet to him, treats him real great. What more can you ask for from a gal? I am really overjoyed that my good friend can finally find someone true to be with.

Oh yeah, just this morning, I got reminded that my friend's gf bought her the car and is also paying for the monthly installments. My friend just needed to pay for the petrol. WOW!! But again my friend really loved her girlfriend toooooooooo much!! SO I guess both love each other equally as much. Well of coz, all the ups and downs that they went through for the past 3++++ years. Have I mentioned that this couple which I am presently talking about are a lesbian pair? Have I also mentioned why more and more pretty gals are turning into lesbianism? It is because MORE and MORE guys are proving themselves to be more jerks/animals/ass/monsters/(fill in the blanks yourself with any demeaning terms) than anything else.

Ok relax guys, you do not need to panick at all. The author here, yours truly, is NOT a lesbo. Heheeheheh. I am just jaded. You know jade? A stone being green and cold..... void of feelings. Thus saying that I am jaded means that I am just cold about such bgr stuffs. Scared me off quite abit. Same like Halle Berry. Except that I was in much better off situations than her lah. Not so dramatic and life threathening. Just the usual stuffs that one gets from break ups. I think being a bachelorette is a great idea... at least for now... until someone can move me. 27-24 yrs olds I am perfectly fine with it. 23yr olds is cool with me. NOT 21yr old boys please!!! But hey! Other than that, I am still a warm and very passionate person about any other stuffs you know. *winks* (I WANNA JUST LEISURE DRIVE AROUND SINGAPORE, SEE THE MONKEYS AT THE UPPER PIERCE RESERVOIR, VISIT THE COW FARM SOMEWHERE AT LIM CHU KANG, VISIT THE HYDROPHONIC FARM, or just to venture around Singapore. etc. It's gonna be so interesting seeing all those stuffs. Interested readers may sign up for the mentioned activity with yours truly. Thank you)

I have never seen and guess I will also never get to see a straight guy buying a car for his gf. I DON'T blame the guys at all. In fact they should never be blamed for this reason. At this point of time and age, who can guarantee 'long lasting love'? The fairy tale ending that everybody wants to have? Alot of gals are getting more and more materialistic as the technology and time advances. I am very sure guys do not invest in something that they do not have any confirm guarantee over. I have heard of cases where the guys turn into gays after being dumped by their ex-gfs. The impact of brokeness the gal had done to the guy... tsk tsk...

Hhmmm... on a last note, Is Love Always Worth The Wait?

Can We Be Together With Another Unequal Yolk?

-=[3rd October 2004, Sunday]=-
Feeling: pondering; venue: homey

After Sammy boy's ktv, went down to Paya Lebar Singpost food court to meet up with another old buddy, Yexiang. It was a nice chat with an old friend. We meet up only like once every year? Asked him about his christian walk and stuffs. He asked me vice versa. We laughed, chatted, discussed. I asked about his China gf. He was amazed that I remembered coz it was like.... 3-4yrs back? I laughed. Why not? He is my buddy what!! Buddy for 6 whole years le leh!! Then he told me about his mistake, about he making the other girl cry etc. Aawwwww... at least he knows that it is wrong so not that bad lah. He is still the same him. Always have a weakness and is very attracted by pretty gals 1st. Hahaha.

Then we touched on the topic of being together with an unequal yolk. He totally disagreed about being with an unequal yolk, whereas for me I beg to differ. He said that the bible mentioned straight that we should not be with unequal yolk. Told him about the experiences that Magdeline had shared with me. She had shared with me about how her conviction was, when she was with an unequal yolk, and SueLynn's conviction when she is with Yang Peng. In fact she is getting married with Yang Peng in coming November. I believe that it is GOD's will that Magdeline was not meant to be with the other guy but Ryan. And for Suelynn, Yang Peng is already softening, and by faith we know that he will also get saved soon. This can be GOD's will too! 'When one is saved in the household, the entire household will be saved. Amen~' I believe that it is all dependent on the person's personal conviction and personal walk with GOD and of coz, GOD's will loh.

Magdeline had gotten together with the other guy when she was already saved. She felt convicted in her. Its like the more she prayed about it, the more uncomfortable and convicted she felt. Thus she finally broke off with the guy and went on a 2 year vow to remain single. Yada yada~ and the story goes on, she is now married with Ryan, another faithful servant of GOD. SueLynn and Yang Peng were together since their university days. During then, she wasn't that much in Christianity. But they have been together for so long le. Now that she is much closer to GOD, she still does not have that kind of conviction. And the fact that Yang Peng is softening and is even attending cell group together with SueLynn at times, doesn't that shows something?

Anyway, to each his own. I still believe it's the personal conviction one has with GOD. Equal yolk or not, it depends on both parties. I shared with him something that Magdeline had said, and that few words that she spoke suddenly hit upon me so strongly now.

"Before we enter a relationship, we must 1st love ourselves. It is only when we are capable of loving ourselves, then we can offer the same love to the other party. We do not enter a relationship because we are empty and need that love. Because in this case, we will only recieve, and do not give. We will keep wanting to recieve love, but yet incapable of giving out the same love to the other person."

If we are only capable of recieiving but not giving, then what love is there? Love is sacrificial. Love is never selfish. How then can we say 'love' when we are only selfish, keep wanting to recieve but never to give?

It's Sam's birthday!

-=[3rd October 2004, Sunday]=-
Feeling: estactic Venue: homey

TOday is my ol' good fren, Sam Yap's 25th birthday. Hee hee... knew him since 1998? When he was studying in YJC. Well it was great knowing him, thru that useless radiO thingy. But never mind. Hey Sammy boy,

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU YAH!!!

I AM VERY HAPPY FOR YOU AND YOUR BOYFRIEND. No matter what and how angry you got at me for calling you a chub (HAHA =P), I want you to know that I appreciate and truly treasure this friendship that we have for years. I am really honoured that year after year I was always being invited to share your birthday with you. Thank you for being the bitchy you. Hee hee.... all the best to you and your boyfriend. Let's meet up again soon big boss!!

P/S I have never really enjoyed ktv. But today's singing session with Pamela and the rest made me suddenly enjoyed singing so much. Think I am more suited for singing mandarin songs. Hhmmm never mind, I look forward to the next ktv session!! Until then, anybody??

Christianity Understooded

-=[1st October 2004, Friday]=-
Feeling: enlightened *ting!!* Venue: home with mosquitoes

*P.S Credit to Liying for posting it up in friendster

The next time someone says............"I thought you were supposed to be a Christian," keep this in mind:

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not shouting "I'm clean living!" I'm whispering, "I was lost; now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say "I am a Christian"... I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble, and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak, and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed, and need God to clean my mess.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible; but God believes I am worth it.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I still feel the sting of pain, I have my share of heartaches, and so I call upon His name.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not holier than thou. I'm just a simple sinner, who received God's good Grace, somehow.

Share this with somebody who already has this understanding, as reinforcement. But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means to be a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others"can be dispelled.

I have been blessed by this message. Hope it does to you too!!

xia0miLk scribbled at 1:21 am. (0) Tears of the bear

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THANK YOU LORD JESUS..
Dear Lord Jesus, THANK YOU for coming into my life, for saving me by YOUR GRACE, for loving me so infinitely, for bringing Joy into my life, for helping me in those trials and tribulations, comforting me when i am down, filling me up when i am empty. THANK YOU for all the blessings that you have showered into into my life in all forms and ways, the angels that you had sent into my life in all forms and relations(my family, students, #A-I frens, ncc frens, church friends, the DYSFUNKSHION peeps, my polytechnic pals and any other friends who have made a significant pact in my life). Dear Jesus, there are simply too many things for me to thank you about that i cant find the proper words to do so. But Lord, you know my heart :) Last but not least, THANK YOU FOR DYING ON THE CROSS FOR ME. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU MY LORD AND GOD. Amen.

..::[About Me]::..
Anna Hee. 26th October. Singapore. Chinese. City-harvester. W185. Jaded. naive. simple-minded. docile. submissive. quick-tempered. quick to cool down. bad-tempered. stubborn. emotional. hurts easily. harmless. petite. peaceful. warm. passionate. loving. smiles 24/7. cheeky. playful. gets amuses easily. laughs easily. cry easily. fickle-minded. Loves GOD.babies.nature.crapping around.wasting time.red and pink colour.driving around leisurely.dogs.red roses.precious moments. Issey Miyake.Louis Vuitton. Hates drugs. Fears rats.mouse.lizards.heights.

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