Encouragement Piece
-=[30th September 2004, Thursday]=-
feeling: brave ; venue: tpy lor 8
*P.S Credit to Liying and Frank and any other people who had this pasted up in friendster
This is a true story of something that happened just a few years ago at USC.
There was a professor of philosophy there who was a deeply committed atheist.............. His primary goal for one required class was to spend the entire semester attempting to prove that God couldn't exist. His students were always afraid to argue with him because of his impeccable logic.
For twenty years, he had taught this class and no one had ever had the courage to go against him. Sure, some had argued in class at times, but no one had ever really gone against him because of his reputation. At the end of every semester on the last day, he would say to his class of 300 students,
"If there is anyone here who still believes in Jesus, stand up!"
In twenty years, no one had ever stood up. They knew what he was going to do next. He would say, "Because anyone who believes in God is a fool. If God existed, he could stop this piece of chalk from hitting the ground and breaking. Such a simple task to prove that He is God, and yet He can't do it." And every year, he would drop the chalk onto the tile floor of the classroom and it would shatter into a hundred pieces. All of the students would do nothing but stop and stare. Most of the students thought that God couldn't exist. Certainly, a number of Christians had slipped through, but for 20years, they had been too afraid to stand up.
Well, a few years ago there was a freshman who happened to enroll. He was a Christian, and had heard the stories about his professor. He was required to take the class for his major,and he was afraid. But for three months that semester, he prayed every morning that he would have the courage to stand up no matter what the professor said, or what the class thought. Nothing they said could ever shatter his faith... he hoped. Finally, the day came. The professor said,
"If there is anyone here who still believes in God, stand up!"
The professor and the class of 300 people looked at him, shocked, as he stood up at the back of the classroom. The professor shouted, "You FOOL!!! If God existed, he would keep this piece of chalkfrom breaking when it hit the ground!" He proceeded to drop the chalk, but as he did, it slipped out of his fingers, off his shirt cuff, onto the pleat of his pants, down his leg, and off his shoe. As it hit the ground, it simply rolled away unbroken. The professor's jaw dropped as he stared at the chalk. He looked up at the young man, and then ran out of the lecture hall. The young man who had stood, proceeded towalk to the front of the room and shared his faith in Jesus for the next half hour. 300 students stayed and listened as he told of God's love for them and of His power through Jesus.
You have 2 choices:
1. Delete this and never look at it again.
2. Pass this along to your Christian and non-Christian friends, giving them encouragement we all need every day.When you choose option 2, you have chosen to STAND UP
I HAVE CHOSEN TO STAND UP. WHAT ABOUT YOU??
xia0miLk scribbled at 11:56 pm.
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Wong YuKang's Wedding
-=[23rd September 2004, Thursady]=-
Feeling: joyful; venue: abode home sweet home
*song playing*
"Toniiiiiiteeeeeeeeeeeeee I celebrate my looooooooovvvvvee for youuuuuuuuuuuuu........"
This is the march-in song for Yukang's wedding... He looked so happy in that suit and his wife looking so glowing with joy.
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(At 1812hrs while driving to mummy's cousin's daughter house to freshen up for the wedding)
*Hp sounds off twinkle twinkle little star ring tone*
Panicky Me: "Halloooooooooooooooo"
Eddie: "Anna ah. What time you coming over ah?"
Panicky Me: *Panick* "Eddie ah, I driving now leh. I call u back later ok?"
Eddie: "okie. Byebyes"
Panicky Me: "byebyes"
*hang up and panicked further*
It's true that I was driving at that time. I panicked coz I was driving and using hp at the same time which is NOT allowed at all. AND I thought that they are back to NPC le, and can go off soon for Yukang's wedding. I was supposed to pick them up after work at Sgoon NPC. I didn't want to be late. I didn't want them to wait for me. I rather that I wait for them coz I don't want 4 people waiting for me alone? It won't be nice to do so. I am also generally quite patient thus I don't mind waiting for them at all. Actually the drive trip from the MSCP to Compass Heights condo is like mega near but due to my incompetency and panick state I took more than needed time to reach the carpark. PLUS my parking skills sucks. Thus at 1st view of an easy parking lot I immediately dive to it. Alas I had forgotten that the lift is like 10,000 miles away thus I had to spend extra time walking towards the lift. On top of that, i spent another 8min or so parking the darn rented car! So all in all spent like ALOT of time just on travelling + attempting to park. *sulks*. Knowing that I had lost the precious time, I panicked even more! *sweats*
Finally reached the place, headed straight to the toilet to doll-up. Rushed and rushed. Never even complete the 'process' and just rushed out le.
(At 1900hrs)
I rushed through session, rushed through the journey to the my ex-workplace, speeded on the road, cursed at the people and car that delayed me and finally parked in front of my ex-workplace. When finally I reached my ex-workplace, I gave Eddie a call and to realise that slot of them are still not ready yet! *faints*.... Well it's ok with me actually. Thus I slowly changed my earrings, put on perfume, changed into high heels etc. When I finally had the chance to cool down and relax, here comes SGT Jeffrey from another team who came out to tick me off and asked me to drive away.
SGT Jeffrey: "You also driver rite? Can you drive away the car? Later on complainant will complain. YOU ALSO XX LEH!!!" (**Note: XX stands for a synosym for my occupation. However I am not allowed to say it online)
Cool me: "okie okie fine" *mumble under my breath*
(drove away in my high heels to the opposite carpark)
I do NOT blame him for chasing me away at all coz I really cannot and shouldn't park over at that spot. I deserve it. Just that probably he could have used a friendlier tone instead? =
(At about 1950hrs)
Finally all appeared and we sped to Orchid Country Club. I had Mark, Eddie, Chun Kiat and Choo in de car. Eventful journey too. Short traffic jam on the CTE, slow moving traffic, conscious safe drivers driving in front of our vehicle thus also forcing our car's driver to drive safely (slow) as well, went past the turning where we should have turned right to get to OCC etc. Checking out the time on my watch, I realized that we were all gonna miss out on his solemnisation ceremony. I was very disappointed.
(FINALLY REACHED)
Ok the ceremony haven't start yet. and I DID NOT MISS THE SOLEMNISATION CEREMONY coz it haven't start!! I was soooooooooooooo happy!!
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Had tons of laughter at the table. My table, no. 37 had Mr Leslie Yong (the person that conducts the solemnisation process. pardon me but i dunno the term for his his title), Terence, Ong Chi Po, Eddie, Melvin, Jordon, Rakesh and me! We were talking cock and laughing away. It was very nice of Eddie to keep helping me pick the food etc. You see, for a person like me, short arms short legs short body, kinda difficult to reach for the food lah. Haha.
Jordon the little boy pretending to be eating. HAHA!!
Melvin pigging away into his food, with Rakesh looking at it hungrily too
Cool huh, this pic. Rakesh look so 3D compared to the background.
Lobster-Red Eddie from the red wine. GEESH.... lousy lah. haha =P
Melvin, Jordon and Rakesh with a toast!
Eddie and I!
Meeeeeeeeeeeee!! I love the yellowish effect.
Group photo with the bride and groom and his family.
Table 38 were for the muslim friends. There were Johari, Sidik, Shahrul, Ibrahim, Nizham, Ferdauz, Sazaly, Senin, Azlee and Syawal.
The muslim friends from table 38
Table 39 sat James & his gf, Kelly, Ong Kok Peng, Koh Boon Yong, Ong Chun Kiat, Choo Guan Sion, Rodney, Mark and Soo Meng Hon.
Table 39. The one looking at the camera lense is non other than Chun Kiat loh.
Dinner finally over. Took some more photographs and finally left the place...
Finally my good mentor's face exposed to the blogger world...
Group photo of my ex-workplace mates.
The groom engulfed by the guys of his team... suddenly I sense the bond of brotherhood...
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MESSAGE FOR YUKANG AND WIFE
My dearest Yukang and wife. When you 2 signed and pledged to each other on that stage, you really cannot imagine my joy that is in me. I dunno why but I was just so thankful to GOD for this wonderful union of 2 souls. I pray that the of 2 will remain on very strong, go thru thick and thin with each other, for you 2 are made just for each other. I dunno anything abt Mrs Wong but I am sure that she is a sweet lady who is just as nice a character as Yukang. 1 thing for sure is that I guarantee that Yukang will be 1 of the bestest life companion who will always remain loyal and faithful to Mrs Wong. I WISH THE BOTH OF YOU THE VERY BEST ALWAYS FOREVER!!
Love,
Anna
xia0miLk scribbled at 8:25 pm.
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-=[22nd September 2004, Wednesday]=-
Feeling: nostalgic & lost; Venue: lost...?
Early morning at 1000hrs, I reach the NPC for the farewell. Entered the training room and saw Mark busy with his digicam, and Kelly busy preparing the food, and a few others in the room. I sat down and stared blankly into the air for awhile.. WeiCheng came in and sat beside me and chatted with me. He is my squadmate who is also going over to SengKang NPC with me. He had just finished his night shift. My mind is filled with thoughts that is so numerous but yet not defined. I also dunno what was I thinking of and feeling of.. I flashed back to the debriefing session on the previous day, 21st September 2004, after the end of my night tour.
*Flashback*
(since it is flashback, I shall use a different coloured font so that the readers will not get confused)
(Though Senin is only a SC, he displays himself as a good policeman. To start off with, his turnout and bearing is GOOD. Neat hairstyle with uniform properly ironed and worn, with everything in place and boots shining (nopes he is NOT a nerd). When on the road, he is brave, knows his rules, knows exactly what to do, and works well. He is never late for work. In fact he always comes early! He carries himself smartly with pride. Of coz at his age and being a guy he will be playful and all. But when come to work, he is a VERY GOOD role model for sooooooo MANY OF US to learn from. Including regulars. It's a pity that all his attempts to sign on to the SPF did not go through. He will make a GREAT NPCO who will rise up high! I hereby pray that GOD shows him the way and helps him clinch the job in SPF, for he truly deserves it!!)
I kept quiet throughout the entire session of de-briefing. Being the most junior there, I should keep my mouth shut. Actually I should had alot of feelings in me. I wanted to open my mouth to say thanks to my mentor Choo Guan Sion, and to TL Insp William Koh. Up till today I still wanna say a MEGA HUGE THANK YOU to them but I guess I still don't want to open my mouth. I have so much more to learn from all the seniors. I love to listen to all their experiences. Fascinating! I really hope to be able to be as good as them, and stay in the force till the day I retire. After the de-briefing TL came over to shake my hands and wished me all the best. After everything I just quickly went up to change and stepped out of the NPC....
(End of flashback)
Back to the farewell, slowly more people start to trail in.... TL also came in. I wanted so much to go over and take picture with him but I was simply soooooooooooooo SHY!! *make shy face*. Then CO and OO came in. CO was invited to saw a few words, followed by giving out plaques to the senior staffs who had been working in the NPC for so long! I dare say they truly deserve it. No matter what they had still put in effort in the work! Next comes the pigging part. I had a great chat with the CO while eating. I shared with her on why I had choose to leave teaching and join the Singapore Police Force. I also shared with her that I will like to be more jaded so as to be more objective and not get too emotional thus hindering the carrying out if duty. CO then shared with me that it is not exactly a good thing to do and shared with me her experiences during her time in I-branch. She has had 8years of experience already! WOWzers! Now isn't that fascinating! No wonder Mark is a fan of both the CO and the OO. Haha.
Following after the pigging session is photo-taking! While talking to Mark, I took some photos of Mark continuously. Of coz he knows it lah. Haha!! AFterwhich Mark also followed my trick and took continuous photographs of us getting ready to take photograph with the CO and OO. HEY MARK!! JUST TO LET YOU KNOW, I SHOWED MELVIN THE PICTURES ON THE DIGICAM AND HE AGREED THAT YOU LOOKED BOYISH AND CUTE!
Mark: "HallO. What are you doing? Are you taking my picture? *bleah*"
Mark: "You are taking my picture right.... don't think I dunno huh" *shy*
Mark:"Ok already lah.I very shy leh!" (tries to siam Anna the sharp shooter)
Me: "HAhahahahah!!!" --> + hand shaking from the laughter + his attempt to escape the camera resulted in this kinda blur photograph
The officers on attachment in Sgoon NPC who are going over to SK NPC, getting ready to take photograph with the OO and CO.
Finally the picture taken.
The finalest picture!
Anyway it's not just the 2 of us (Me and Sazaly) leaving the team to SK. Senin will also be ORDing on the 26th September, Soo Meng Hon will be going over to K9 at the end of October, and either Mark or Rodney will be going over to another team. They look as below:
The one on the left in spectacles is Sazaly who is going over to SK NPC with me, the one on the right is role-model Senin.
This is Mark. Heh when I showed his picture to Melvin, he also agreed that Mark has this very cute boyish look.
This is Soo Meng Hon, the future dog handler.
(*Note: I do not have Rodney's solo picture thus pls refer to the previous entry for Rodney's dashing face)
Then overall there will be a reshuffling of the team.... so many changes.. changes always comes in at the time when we are most comfortable, when we are enjoying the current situation in our comfort zones. SHEESH. Then we will have to adapt to the change, learn to get use to and appreciate with whatever we have all over again. Nobody likes changes. Everybody hates changes. Coz we never know what will be in store for us. We have to shift our paradigm to embrace the new settings and start all over again.... I remembered pastor had previously mention before during one of the service that we have to get out of our comfort zones to move on for GOD...
Frankly speaking I enjoy working under this current TL. Really. At least so far for the past experiences that I have accumulated all these while, I enjoyed my times under him. I will like to thank GOD for the team that I was in during my time Sgoon NPC. It was a good place and team for me to learn frm and to recover from the previous bad experiences... THANK YOU TL INSP WILLIAM KOH, MENTOR SSGT CHOO GUAN SION AND EVERYBODY WHO HAD HELPED AND TAUGHT ME ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.
That marks the end of my official title as a Sgoon NPC NPCO........
GOODBYE SERANGOON NPC
xia0miLk scribbled at 7:09 pm.
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Rodney's new Toy
-=[19th September 2004, Sunday]=-
Feeling: excited; Venue: lost...?
Rodney's got a new toy. Its small, cute, fascinating, causes dramatic excitement to me. It's his new 7-in-1 digicam!!
It has functions of:
1) digital camcorder aka
2) digital still camera aka
3) digital voice recorder
4) video camera
5) USB portable disk
6) PC Cam
7) Music player
Apparently this product is of the Brand Mustek . I have never heard nor even know about this brand until Rodney got the cam from the Wearnes factory that was very near to my home. It was right after our night shift that he took bus together with me to the factory. We were having a nice conversation regarding brands of items and costs that comes along with it, and its quality of it. Both of us agreed that a branded item that is expensive may not be that all good in terms of quality, and a non-leading or infamous brand doesn't mean that it is not of great quality! Especially handphones! Whatever it is, I still feel that when buying electronic stuffs it is best to buy a first-hand product. Coz the owner can claim and blow the trumpet of all the good qualities 2nd hand product may be/have BUT you never know that it have been dropped before etc. No way am I gonna risk it.
Anyway At the following end of day shift, he showed the digicam to me. Man!! was I excited!!! It was sooooooooooooo small!! Sooooooooooooo cute!!!!! Sooooooooooooo light!! Sooooooooo many functions!! I borrowed it and played and played with it. Though I also didn't quite know how to use it but it was fun lah. I was playing with it so much that I didn't want to return to him. Haha!! I tried reading the manual. In the manual had instructions in Korean language as well! Immediately I recollected the previous night's fun at Wenzhong's home where the few of us gathered to have de movie marathon. The Korean instructions reminded me of the Korean movie we watched entitled "Windstruck". That movie was hilarious!! We were laughing non-stop at the movie.
Okie back to the digicam. It was fun. He also wasn't quite sure how to use it. We used it to take quite a few pics. Well I will love to show all de pics but he only sent me the few pics of me. The rest he had deleted le *Pouts*. Never mind I am still grateful to him for it.
The following tour of duty, I also played around with it. This time round I did more nonsense. I recorded Mark's singing while he was not noticing. I also did this stupid short clip that made Rodney laugh out loud when he saw it! Will try to find my friend donglun to host it then will share it with you guys k. Anyhooooooooooooooo here are some pics that was taken with his cam. Of coz the photographer is non other than our SSGT Rodney Low!!
Low low pixels + shaky hands = this product. Haha!!
He took it while I was on the phone with Nancy!!
Okieeee. This is me and the dashing Rodney. Can you see that both of us has the same tired face + eyes + eyebags that shows we had been working VERY HARD during the previous day's night shift such that we never sleep at all! Hee hee....
oh how I yearn for a 4 mega pixel Canon Ixus digicam.......
xia0miLk scribbled at 6:02 pm.
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It's Tricia's Birthday!!
-=[19th September 2004, Sunday]=-
Feeling: Estactic; venue: homey after day shift
It's my soulmate, Tricia's 20th brithday!!
Tricia and I had gone waaaaayy back to year 2000!! It was such a coincident? Or issit GOD arranged? I dunno.
I had graduated from NIE and was posted to a secondary school in the North of SG to teach Home Economics and Food & Nutrition. During then, I was chatting with her then-boyfriend, JiaHao. I was pretty excited that his gf was in the same school as me! Thus I had asked him to ask her to look out for me (Hey it is easier for a student to look out for ONE new teacher, than a new teacher to look out for a student among THOUSANDS other students). I looked forward to reporting to school for work...
(yada yada time moved on...)
I was in Julin's sec4 Food&Nutrition class to learn some ropes from her (as she was going on long leave to get married etc. I was supposedly to take over her class. Eventually it was another relief teacher that took over). Little did I know that Tricia was in that class! When Tricia had 1st saw me, she didn't know that it was me though. She taught that I was Julin's ex-student who had just graduated from GCE 'A' Levels and had just returned to do relief teaching. It was only much later that she realised it was me.
(In canteen drink stall no. 1)
Tricia: "Excuse me, are you Miss Anna Hee?"
stunned me: "Yah.. why?"
Tricia: "Oh... nothing... I am Jiahao's gf.." *smiles*
Shy me: "OH...... so you are Jiahao's gf ah? HallOoOOoo... " *Hee hee....* (I wasn't quite prepared for such a scene thus I really didn't know what to say to her. Besides I was pretty shy then)
For a start we weren't close at all. I remember that there was once, I was having dinner with another relief teacher, Mr Ken Ong at Bishan Sushi. Halfway thru dinner, Tricia called me to ask questions about some past-year GCD 'N' level questions. We had a brief chat for awhile. I then mentioned to Ken about me knowing Tricia's bf and all. And he was went:
Ken: "Oh, I know which gal. Don't tell her that I am having dinner with you yah"
Curious me: "Why issit that you don't want me to let her know?"
Suspicious Ken: "Oh nothing. Just don't tell her" (puts on a charming smile. But he has forgotten that charms doesn't work on me)
Suspecting me: "Ok sure *smiles charmingly back*
(Hhmmm... He sure is behaving suspiciously. He seem to have something to hide. Never mind I will let Tricia know that I do know him)
Later on I found out from the Tricia on the reason why he did not want her to know that I got on pretty well with him. He had some dirty linen in the school. He had went steady with another sec4 gal!! OHMIGOSH. HOW UNPROFESSIONAL!! And like HELLOooooOOOooo he was 29 yrs old then, and the sec4 gal was only 16yrs old!! Not only that, apparently the gal had gone depressed and rumoured that she had attempted suicide over him too! I duno what he did to the gal but it sure ain't good. I was disgusted! Geesh. My impression of him had changed totally.
(When I 1st went to the school, he was very friendly and all. Came over to chat and welcomed me to the school. Very often inviting me to lunch together, suggests for out-of-school fellowships like movies etc.. He was a pretty charming guy too. Charming looks and smiles, doesn't look like his original age but more of like 25 with a mature streak in him? Had a NUS masters degree in dunno-wad-topic)
(Yada yada blah blah blah time flies on)
I do not quite remember (neither does she) of what issit that got us closer and closer during her stay in school. We were so close that we will often sit together in school to chat and laugh. She will be doing her homework while I mark my books. But most of the time we will just be chatting away. As time went by, we got realllllllllll close.
I will like to thank GOD for putting her into my life as my soulmate. We share everything!! She is simply awesome! She is most unselfish, generous, shares everything, true to her friends etc! She was there for me through my darkest scariest times. THANK YOU FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE!!
I really pray that she and her bf, Charles, will last on and eventually go onto the red carpet. She loves him toooo much. Very often she will tell me stuffs about him, like forcing her to take meat (she is a vegetarian) and doing stuffs to her that really shouldn't be done and that it hurts her deeply. I got very mad. But I kept it down within and only expressed verbally my unhappiness. I only want her to be happy. As long as she is happy, whatever she do (NOTHING illegal and life threathening that is) I will ALWAYS support her. Thus I hope he had better not do anything that hurts her, like abusing her physically coz I will NOT tolerate it anymore!!
Once again...
Let's grow old together and see each other through the difficult times till we drop dead! kekekeek!!
xia0miLk scribbled at 1:13 pm.
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Progression of Age and Everything else
-=[18th September 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: amused; Venue: At home (duh rite?)
Shirley, Jasper, Andrew and I were having this post-dinner fellowship over at ButterScotch Coffee over at Cineleisure. Actually it was supposed to be a movie fellowship instead but due to the timing of the movies and my shft 1 schedule, they had to miss the movie. I felt so VERY guilty. *guilty face* Actually I wanted them to go for the movies and enjoy themselves while I can just go home. It's ok without my presence anyway but Shirley just said its ok to miss it etc. Shirley and Jasper were fine with it, though Andrew looked abit unhappy about it (YES ANDREW I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU. ARE YOU READING THIS?) heheheheeheh... SORRY LAH ANDREW....
It had been a loooooooonnnnnnnnggggg time since we had such interesting conversation. While chatting away, I was doing some silent reminiscing internally. How fast time had passed. We were only 17 years old when we 1st knew each other. Now we can almost smell the 10years aka 1 decade anniversary celebration that we may wanna have. haha. My gosh.. we are all so advanced in age le. Our conversation topics also advanced too. From 'gaming' and 'project work' to 'busy life working schedule' and 'getting married'. Hhmmm somehow I can see a pattern to this. As our age progresses on, conversation topics will also progress to 'getting 1st child and more children' to 'problems with handling growing kids etc'. Haha..
We were on the interesting topic of getting hitched. I mentioned to Jasper that I THINK the kind of woman that he will like to date is of the big boobies sexy kind of woman. (Perhaps with some bit of womanly curls on the hair, or the type who likes being clad in bikini kind.) He looked amused and didn't understand why I had this feeling. Frankly I also dunno why I had such a feeling but I just do. Then I mention to Andrew that I THINK his kind of woman will be the simple yet pleasant-looking kind. Not a complicated kind of woman but forthcoming. I know to him height matters coz he mentioned it before during the supper at newton hawker, together with Christy and Daniel. And what makes me think so? I dunno but somehow I just have this feeling.
Jasper mentioned his guts feelings about my future husband being someone boyish looking. I laughed. I attribute this to my not-realistic-age appearance. My mind did a brief scan of list of male friends that I have who are boyish looking. Arrow points to only one, Alex. I giggled to myself. Alex is this super busy IT line guy who have high standards in work, 2 years my senior of age, also looking for a gf now. He is also a gym freak who find himself constantly being preyed upon by fellow gay gymmers. Always very well-dressed, he is often mistaken as a gay man. He claims to be a metrosexual instead. (*Note: A metrosexual is An urban male with a strong aesthetic sense who spends a great deal of time and money on his appearance and lifestyle). Yeah its true lah. He is very good-looking, very well-dressed, very good taste in his dressing, speaks really well, appreciates language jokes, good looking, looks younger than his age though he can't escape the moment he open his mouth and you can hear and sense the maturity out of him, sculpts his body to perfection in the gym, loves marathon running etc. And why is he still single? Coz he is the kind where at one look at him, you will either think that he is a gay, or he is already taken. (Yes he is that good looking). I always tease him about looking gay. Haha. Ok will try to post up his pic to show you all once I have it. Enough of him already.
Sorry I digressed. Next Jasper mentioned about his guts feelings of Eunice's future husband being someone who is very well established in career (perhaps having his own business), probably abit more advanced in maturity level, someone who also loves GOD and is from City-Harvest Church, and pretty big in size. I laughed out loudly. Immediately I did another mental scan for her in my brains. I laugh out louder. I manage to pinpoint this ROY from the church. Both of them had met during the Israel trip. A pretty well-established guy and Eunice had been going on pretty well with him. He is about 6 years of age more senior than Eunice. His size is of average lah. Haha. Well if Eunice can really end up with him, I will be soooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY for her!! Coz I know that he will take care of her well. Afterall isn't that what a woman wants eventually out of marriage? Love, care, affection, well taken care of etc.
Ok I shift my brainworks onto Shirley now. For her I really can't tell leh. yeah perhaps is coz I dun communicate with her that DEEP enough. But nevertheless I still want her to get the best person for her!!
All I want is, for people around me to be happy within =)
xia0miLk scribbled at 10:06 pm.
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Lovestruck!!
-=[18th September 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: Red; Venue: At home (zZzZzZz...)
He's cute...
He's got big round eyes...
He's got round face...
He's got a cute smile...
He does not have alot of hair...
He's hyper active...
He comes to my place only once a week...
I can't resist him...
I am so in love with...
ARCHER MY NEIGHBOUR'S 9MTH OLD SON!!!
I love to carry him, play with him, disturb him. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH HIM!! Just look at his suave Looks!
OHMIGAWD..... I am hyperventilating....
AAaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh... I can't take it anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... His smile is so cuteeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! SOMEBODY PASS ME THE OXYGEN TANK PLEASE!!!!
(Meanwhile at a corner of Anna's home....)
(Archer: "This Anna kept molesting me and not letting me go... See how miserable I look?")
xia0miLk scribbled at 11:55 am.
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Hee Hee Hee I am a XPIG!!
-=[15th September 2004, Wednesday]=-
Feeling: ecstatic; Venue: home sweet home
eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 8/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 8/10
You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Catch.
You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.
You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.
You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.
Of all the types, you would make the best parent.
You are coiffed.
Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."
Of the 74139 people who have taken this quiz, 8.6 % are this type.
Take The test Today
xia0miLk scribbled at 1:18 am.
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My IQ Test Results
-=[14th September 2004, Tuesday]=-
feeling: chirpy; venue: homey~
The Classic IQ Test
What's Your IQ?
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Congratulations, yun! Your IQ score is 126
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Inspired Inventor. This means you've got exceptional verbal and mathematical skills, and are very good at brainstorming new ideas. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.
xia0miLk scribbled at 7:37 pm.
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Acronym of My Nick Name
-=[13th September 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Drowsy; Venue: At home (zZzZzZz...)
Accuracy test. Anybody wanna feedback to me if it is accurate?
| X | X-BoxHueg |
| I | Inspirational |
| A | Amorous |
| O | Organic |
| M | Mysterious |
| I | Ideal |
| L | Legendary |
| K | Kinky |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
xia0miLk scribbled at 9:01 pm.
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I am a Proud Graduate of the University of Blogging
-=[13th September 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Drowsy; Venue: At home (zZzZzZz...)
Hee hee heeee.... I have an Honorary Degree from the University ofBlogging for all my hard work!
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Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com
xia0miLk scribbled at 8:54 pm.
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The Forbidden City & its Emperors
-=[13th September 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Drowsy; Venue: At home (zZzZzZz...)
Had a brief watch on Discovery Channel some 8 days ago. It was featuring the 'Forbidden City' over at China, where the all supreme Emperors of the ancient Ming and Qing dynasty ruled and lived in. It was their Imperial Palace. WaW!!! the information was simply fascinating for this pea brain of mine. It caught my interest and I did a mini search on it. The information I got from this site, Beijing Forbidden City was an eye-opener and simply over whelming for me.
The palace was built from 1407, the 5th year of the YongLe reign, of the 3rd emporer of the Ming dynasty, and was completed 14yrs later in 1420. The mega-huge structure and vast land used for it. Even while just viewing through the pictures and reading the words made me feel that the area is simple tooooooooooooooo HUGE. By looking at the pictures alone, already made me mentally tired as i visualise myself walking through all the halls and walkways (it seems like every walkway will be several hundred metres long). If one were to conquer it on foot only, by when will he/she be able to complete walking through the entire palace? A few days I presume (based on the assumption that the person will start from 6.00am and end at 6.00pm, without taking any breaks in be-tween at all)? The amazing skills and intelligence of the artisans that had the decorations, carving on the marbles, sculptures, and structures of the building; right from the basic drainage system to the very structure of all the. Can you imagine the millions of workers and artisans being driven around into hard work, coming up with a a tangible product that spurred out of ONE single man? Geesh... I feel for them. All their sweat and blood. Doesn't this simply remind us of what fortunate good times we are having now?
An emperor holds all mighty power over all people. He is looked upon as some sons of heaven and should live on the center of the earth. An emperor always has this entourage of advisors and eunuches following him around to wherever he goes to. He is the ONLY ONE who gets to walk through the main gate, the exclusively long main bridge. Sheesh! Emperors have about 6 rooms to choose to sleep in every night, where nobody except his very close and trusted advisor will know exactly where he sleeps in that night. This is done so as to prevent assassins from assasinating him.
An emporer eats alone. For every meal, he will have 100 over dish to choose from, but they will only nibble from the few dishes. Apparently the Imperial kitchen is always cooking away constantly so that the Emperor will be able to eat at anytime and anywhere of the palace. Upon his orders, food will be presented to him almost instantly. After that, the leftovers will be bestowed to his ministers and other councils. Before the Emperor takes his meal of any dishes, a servant had to taste it 1st and to insert some kind of silver needle into the food. The needle must not discolour. This is done so as to ensure that the food is not poisoned.
Oh, an Emporer is supposed to be a polygamist, with LOTs of concubines. The muslim law only allowed 4 wives the max, with equal treatment and love to all 4, but an Emperor is rumoured to have 3000 wives! (cheap joke). None of his consorts/concubines/empresses are allowed to spend the entire night with him. Apparently, only upon summon, then a concubine will be brought over and placed naked at the foot of his bed by the eunuches. This is again to prevemt her from having any weapons hidden on her. After some time of companionship she will then be sent away. But she is not allowed to return to her own abode at that time, thus she will just take her rest at this side room near to the Emperor's, while he gets to spend the entire night away ALONE.
Question of the day: Though he can get all the women that he lusts for in the world, but alas how many of the woman truly loves him?
1) None?
2) Zero?
3) Negative 5?
4) His mother?
Ok I was just being sarcastic here. I GUESS that most of them will not love him as who he is. Let's think of the background. Who will wanna marry somebody and get dumped after 2-3 days, and had to live in solace and cut off from the rest of the world till the day they die? Who will wanna marry someone who she doesn't love? Oh I forgot, there are such a group of women around. The greedy ones who only go for MONEY. Most of them just just eyeing his riches. I guess also can't blame them. They do know that once the emporer had “conquered” them, he will almost lose interest immediately. Thus the riches also fill up the emptines inside them, the feeling of having to be loved and able to return the love. BUT AGAIN, an emperor can lead a pretty lonely life. He may have alot of people surrounding him in his life but how many of them really 'love' him? The need for Love, Affection and belongingness of the 3rd level of Abraham Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. He has to eat alone, sleep alone, move about with so many other people, his concubines and empress may not really love him. Then behind his back, the women of his life will be plotting against each other. Especially the one in the 'Emperor's List' will most probably be the 1st woman to go missing. What kind of a family warmth is there in this?
Geesh what's with power and money? What's the point of having power and money if eventually we are gonna die with no real love in our life, no happy warm family and probably die lonely... with that gap in our mind and heart forever?
xia0miLk scribbled at 8:38 pm.
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What Type of Bra Are You?
-=[9th September 2004, Thursday]=-
Feeling: Addicted; Venue: At home (where else??)
This is getting insane. I am like doing the Quizilla non-stop. I am really addicted to it le. BUT I must stress.... not all quizilla quizes are worth doing.. And geesh... I really cannot believe my result for this particular quiz... hehehehehe
You're a red lacy bra, Romantic, sexy, seductive,
and tempting.
What type of bra are you?
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xia0miLk scribbled at 11:33 am.
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Who's Your Sexy Inner Cartoon Chick
-=[9th September 2004, Thursday]=-
Feeling: stoned; Venue: At home (where else??)
Woooooooo... I have always known that I am sexy.. but not to this extent! Muahahahahah *thick skin* =P
Jessica Rabbit
Who 's Your Inner Sexy Cartoon Chick ?
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xia0miLk scribbled at 11:28 am.
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My 10 Materialistic Passion
-=[8th September2004, Wednesday]=-
Feeling: blur; Venue: At home (where else??)
I LOVE ..... (Again in no order or loving nor affection)
1) Louis Vuitton!!!
Yeah yeah... I am not materialistic but I simply loooooooooovvvvvvvveeeeeeeee it. It simply looks so class and elegant!! That is the one and only branded item that I LOVE!!
2) My Issey Miyaki perfume!!
Smells so good... so sexy... so sensous... so ME.... hehehehe
3) Mazda Formulae car! (Automatic please)
I want to paint it sweet pink!!
4) Handphone with in-built camera
So that I can just snap stuffs as and when I can and also myself! heeeeeeee.
5) Canon Ixus digicam!!
I cant take my hands off Eunice's digicam...
6) Shoes!
Pointy-toe or strappy heeled shoes. Sexy lah!
7) Handbags!
Womanly...
8) Good haircut / treatment
My hair is a patch of grass on my head without proper treatment. Like right now loh!
9) Manicure and pedicure
Womanly..
10) Spa..
I havent been to 1 before in my entire life!
xia0miLk scribbled at 10:56 am.
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Growing Up
-=[7th September 2004, Tuesday]=-
Feeling: sleepy; Venue: At home (where else??)
Ok I am coming out of the shell... I shall now reveal my face to the world. heeee. I gonna show de world how i morphed from a tiny bundle till today's elf face... (Just 2 mths ago I went to trim my eyebrow, de make-up artist exclaimed: "I like your hair!! SO pixie!! SO cute! So suit you! Where you had it cut har??")
This pic was taken when I was x (you fill in the blanks coz I dunno how old was I. haha!) mths old.That is me and my dad.
Hehehe This is my cousin. She is 1yr my junior actually. And the small world is, she was the primary school classmate of my ex-bf.
Think I was only 1yr old in this pic. This is the old Toa Payoh Garden, which partially had now given way to the Toa Payoh Hub underground carpark. I LOOKED LIKE A BOY!!!!!
My family portrait, Me, my daddy, my mummy, and my elder bro (by 4 years). =) I should be around... 1yr plus? Or less than that? I dunno leh.
These are my next door neighbours. I am VERY CLOSE to them. I used to refuse to return home from their place. I ate there, slept there, played there etc. When I was small, I will refuse to take any kind of medicine at all. Then they had to activate almost the entire family to grab me down and force me gulp down the yucky syrup!!
Hee hee This was me when I was 5-yrs old, on my 5th birthday, with my elder brother beside me.
This pic was taken on my grandmother's 60th birthday. See how I grow ugly as each yr I grow?
And finally!! This is ME!!!
xia0miLk scribbled at 1:39 am.
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Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonite
-=[6th September2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Dreamily sentimental; Venue: At home (duh)
This slow soothing song make me so dreamy. Haha!! Again it's the little things that people do that goes straight to us isn't it?
Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonight
It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me, Do I look alright
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight
We go to a party, And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady, That's walking around with me
And then she asks me, Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight
I feel wonderful, Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all, Is that you just don't realize
How much I love you
It's time to go home now And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bed
And then I tell her As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight
xia0miLk scribbled at 6:36 pm.
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Elton John - Your Song
-=[6th September2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: sentimental; Venue: At home (where else??)
I like the way this song goes. Its sounds so sweet to me. He wrote this song for someone. Its the little things that people do that counts.
Elton John - Your Song
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, ha but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mindI hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I hope you don't mindI hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
xia0miLk scribbled at 6:25 pm.
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My Myers-Briggs Personality Test
-=[6th September2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Very excited; Venue: At home (where else??)
It was a great chat with Xiaoyun and Andrew (Shahril had to go off earlier coz he was too stoned) at the Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf joint last night. Xiaoyun mentioned that she is freelancing on giving workshops on inspirations etc. She is actually a qualified workshop conductor of the Myers-Briggs personality test. She kinda analysed for me. And yeah thanks to Andrew - he got for me the webby for the test and I kinda took it again. WOah so accurate the readings and analysis. I have to stress that the webby is just a brief one. But is already sufficient enough for me to find out the main points about me =). For more in-depth and detailed analysis, you will have to purchase it over the net, which I am not gonna do so *bleah*
Anyway according to the results, I am a ISFP personality. Ok below is the short brief about me:
Life as an ISFP (Introvert, Sensor, Feeler, Perceiver)
People of this type tend to be: kind, humble, and highly empathetic; thoughtful, faithful, and affectionate with those they know well; sensitive to criticism and easily hurt; quiet, soft-spoken, and gentle; adaptable, responsive, and curious; realistic and down to earth.
The most important thing to ISFPs is feeling peaceful and harmonious with the people and places that matter most to them.
Great careers for ISFPs
Here are just a few popular and often satisfying careers for people whose Personality Type is ISFP. (Hhmmm and I noticed that all of these below listed jobs all needed alot of human touch in it. Guess I am kinda in an appropriate job now)
- Primary care physician
- Occupational therapist
- Designer: interior / landscape
- Massage therapist
- Customer service representative
- Fashion designer
- Chef
- Paralegal [whatever it is. I dunno (-_-")]
- Surveyor
- Registered Nurse
- Dental hygienist
- Travel agent / tour operator
- Home health worker
- Medical assistant
- Alcohol and drug addiction counselor
How to Love an ISFP
It is very easy to love me... heeee
- Be a patient and supportive listener;
- make it safe for me to speak my mind.
- Appreciate my gentle, nurturing nature and ability to find joy in simple pleasures.
- Express your love and affection freely and often!
- Demonstrate your devotion in thoughtful actions.
- Try not to nag me about order, or force decisions too quickly.
- Above all - Show me you love me exactly the way I am.
Parenting ISFPs
The Joys and Challenges of Raising ISFPs:
- They are affectionate, caring, and loyal,
- but are also extremely sensitive and are easily hurt or rejected.
- While they are observant, quiet, and gentle, they tend not to see the implications of their actions and may become overwhelmed with large tasks.
What works with ISFPs:
- hold and snuggle them a lot;
- speak to them with a soft and gentle voice;
- give your full attention when they speak to you
- support their feelings and allow them to express themselves in their own time and style
- model assertiveness and create an atmosphere where they are safe to practice these budding skills
Parents of ISFPs: they'll know you really love them when you...buy them clothing made of silk, velvet, or velour, or bring home a pet
SpeedReading ISFPs
The key to success lies in your ability to quickly size others up, and speak their language. Here are just a few clues for SpeedReading (understanding) and SpeedReaching (communicating with) ISFPs.
- gentle, soft-spoken, and modest
- relaxed, easygoing, and accommodating
- unassuming and not terribly assertive
- fun loving, caring, and sensitive
Tips for Communicating with ISFPs:
- Avoid confrontations! Be cooperative and gentle
- Stress the practical ways they can be of assistance to others
- Make projects fun - enjoy the moment with them
This is great!! I got to know myself better! And hey!! It is so accurate. Anyway I am going off for a swim now. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......... I LOVE SWIMMING!! best of all, I am going swimming in my mum's cousin's daughter's condo over at SengKang!! It's been a long time since I had a swim. I miss swimming.. hee hee hee I just can't stop smiling =) It's been a loooooooonnnnnnnnnggggg time since I am able to feel so happy!
xia0miLk scribbled at 4:29 pm.
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AddictionS
-=[6th September 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Cheerful; Venue: At home (where else??)
I am addicted to.... (In no order of level of addiction nor importance)
1) Playing my MP3s from my computer.
I need a 4gig MP3 player!!!!
2) Self-taking of pics with the camera in my own hands
I need a digicam.... Nopes I am NOT a narcissist.
3) Zooming around in an automatic car
Anybody wanna sponsor me car rental fees for my birthday? I don't mind being your driver at all. I just wanna drive around.
4)Reading mind-boggling blogs.
Cheem? Afraid Nots! It just meant I like to read about blogs that makes ME think and ponder deeply about stuffs.
5) Quizilla!!
Die... I am like so addicted to Quizilla now... but hey it is kinda cool... I wonder though if the results of the test is somehow affected by my mood during the answering of the questions. Becoz our moods do affect our choice of answers doesn't it? And different answers produce different analysis of results.
6) The tall interesting packaging of milk tea with coffee jelly sold at 7-11.
I Love it!!! Its thirst quenching, tasty and kept me awake throughout the entire night!!
7) Shamelessly writing stupid blogs
Despite my limited lousy command of English.
8) My Issey Miyake perfume!!
I pledge to be loyal and true to my all time favourite perfume (yeah yeah I know, I ripped this off from my police pledge).
9) Self-snapping of pictures using a hp with in-built camera
I always take Rosminah's hp to snap myself when I get o lay hands on her hp. Heeee... and Nopes I am still NOT a narcissist.
10) Last but not least, little kids from 6mths old to 24mths old!!
They are sooooooooooooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuutttttttteeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
xia0miLk scribbled at 3:25 pm.
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An Interesting Observation..
-=[6th September 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: Cheerful; Venue: At home (where else??)
Yesterday after the wedding, I was on my way to town to meet up with Xiaoyun and Shahril, using MERT as my mode of transport. It was a pretty long journey all the way from Tampines to CityHall, then to change the line to North-South, and then to alight at Orchard station. I was sitted directly opposite this malay couple - a guy and a gal. The guy was clad in the funky style - loose 3/4 jeans and loose tee, wavy hair with chunks of bracelets on his wrists. The gal, on the other hand, has this typical minah look. But she is not exactly the minah either. She is wearing this denim jacket with a top within, tight denim jeans and strappy sandals on her feet, together with a LV handbag. Quite decently dressed I will say. She does has the typical minah makeup on her face - pencil thin drawn eyebrow (the kind that you know that once you wipe off the drawing, there is NO brow there at all!), pale-looking face with lip gloss. Probably she is a newbie and had just stepped into the band of minah-hood. Thus still pretty new to their culture and dress sense. Haha!!
Their body language kept me looking at them. No, no don't misunderstand me. They did not perform any PDA (public display of affection) in front of me. They were rather shy with each other. When I 1st got into the train and sat down, I noticed them speaking rather coyly to each other. After that throughout the journey, the gal will be smsing away, or kept dialling number to her friends (apparently her friend did not pick up coz there was no conversation on the phone), or simply replacing the hp into her bag then fishing it out again then replacing into her bag and fishing out again etc and the cycle goes on and on and on... The guy on the other hand, will be staring blankly into the thin air with folded arms, or playing his hp games. Not much conversation between the 2 of them. When there is, it will be very coy conversation, just a few lines followed with long bode of silence.
I was BORED throughout the journey. I started analysing their body language and let my imagination go wild abit. I reckon that it must be their 1st meeting up with each other. They were sitting right next to each other but the way their ass were placed on the seats with the big gap in-between still (despite sitting right next to each other), together with their own agenda of 'activities' and coy conversations throughout the entire journey that I observed, I reckoned that they had probably got to know each other through some internet chat or phone chats, followed by some exchanged of emails and smses, and yesterday was their very 1st time meeting each other!! I smiled to myself. They looked so adorable - shy, coy, lost. Hee hee ..... so adorable... they looked pretty young. Probably only 17-18yrs old. Probably they will warm up soon while they are puffing away their sticks. Then they will get attached to each other, be introduced to each other's gang and hang out together. If things get ugly, all they will do will be just to 'break up'. Tadaaaaaaaaaaa~~~ sounds simple rite??
Disclaimer: I have NOTHING against them/mats/minahs etcetera. It was only a for-fun baseless analysis.
xia0miLk scribbled at 2:12 pm.
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Another Quizilla - What's My Element(girls)?
-=[6th September 2004, Monday]=-
Feeling: cheerful ; venue: at home
You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy,
social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's
day. You are very kind and a real people person
because you have several friends (or atleast
should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable
and your stunning looks are sweet and stand
out.
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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xia0miLk scribbled at 1:51 pm.
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Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz
-=[5th September 2004, Sunday]=-
Feeling: calm; venue: at home
Geesh another Quizilla again. I am so hooked onto it... Ok I gonna sleep now. I didn't sleep during the previous entire night tour of duty at all. Not even an hour of doze. Nopes I didn't...
Gotta wake up at 1300hrs later coz I am going to my Malay colleague's wedding lunch - ALONE. It is pretty nice of him to invite me though I have been there for only a month. A handsome guy he is, Ferdauz. I wish him all the best for his marriage. It will definitely sadden me to see another happily wedded couple break up eventually...
On a side note, I hate my hp. It just auto switched off and died on me TWICE!!! ARGH!!! See! I told you my hp is constantly dying on me. I really need a new hp. This make me all the more wanting to change a new HP le.... sighs... this is getting more miserable as days go by...
*sulk and sulk and sulk and sulk and sulk and sulk and sulk and sulk.....*
You are the fox.
Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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xia0miLk scribbled at 10:02 am.
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I Want the Toy...
-=[4th September 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: miserable; venue: at home
Bought a PDA....
cost me $500...
heart pain coz pocket has a HUGE hole...
VERY tempted to use it: download songs, take pics (PDA has a in-built camera, and ppl knows that I like to self-take pics for fun), blog on it, surf net, check mails...
it's in my home all these while...
but I can't use it...
Coz its not for me...
I have always YEARNED for a MP3 player, or a new HP coz my current HP dies on me...
But I dun even bear to spend that money on myself...
I have never spent money on myself at all...
But I always do on others...
Wonder if it is worth it spending such money...
This is getting too depressing...
I am miserable...
xia0miLk scribbled at 5:41 pm.
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My Horoscope - Scorpio
-=[4th September 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: amused; venue: at home
Was surfing around the net and saw this. Pretty interesting. SO thought of just putting up and let you guys see! Dunno why but I just wanna put up posts =P
The SCORPIO Oct. 24 - Nov. 21
Determined, Forceful, Emotional, Intuitive, Powerful, Passionate, Exciting and Magnetic
Jealous, Resentful, Compulsive, Obsessive, Secretive and Obstinate
Intuitive and ever curious, Scorpios are the great investigators of the Zodiac. They want to know everything about everyone. When an answer is needed, a Scorpio will find it for you. Unfortunately Scorpios seem to see only in black and white. They always have their own agenda and never fail to promote it.Scorpios are the masters of their fate. They know only one way to live: on their own terms. They do not live life but attack it. When life hands them a loss, they do not waste time sulking, but rather continue on their path, sure they will eventually succeed.
Scorpios are driven by their intense passions and desires. Often they are seen as imperious.Scorpios are a secretive lot. Those around them may never know the depth of their passions. Probing the Scorpio psyche will only make them leery and cause them to flee. Whether in business or play, Scorpios love to compete. Indeed to do well, they must have an opponent. Scorpios do not take slights well. If you cross them be assured they will retaliate with their full force. Scorpios never quit and never surrender. If anyone can get a difficult task done it is a Scorpio.
The Scorpio In Love:Scorpios have a dark and mysterious style which, combined with an irresistible personal magnetism, creates a fascination in members of the opposite sex. They ooze sexual excitement and require a partner who can keep up with their marvelous capacity for taking everything to the limit and far beyond. For Scorpios, emotions run deep, and their faculty of intuition is remarkably accurate, so their antennae can pick out a prospective partner at first sight. They need, however, to keep a part of themselves private and personal. They can react vigorously should a lover trespass in their personal domain. Scorpios can be unduly domineering in personal relationships, especially should they perceive their partner to be weaker than themselves. Their biggest problem is finding someone who, while strong enough to maintain a tempestuous lifestyle, is interesting enough to remain a challenge. Once they find the right person they will mate for life.
Famous Scorpians Include:Marie Antoinette, Marie Curie, Martin Luther, Theodore Roosevelt, Bill Gates, Lorne Michaels, Picasso, William Penn, Christopher Columbus, Sally Field, Joni Mitchell, Mohammed, Prince Charles, Goldie Hawn, Roberto Goizueta, and Voltaire
Ideal Jobs Include:Scorpions are well-suited for careers as doctors, investigators, ecologists, managers, engineers, navigators and secret agents.
Lucky Numbers:8, 17, 26, 35, 44, 53
Planet: Pluto
Star Stone: Opal
Element: Water
Most Compatible With: Pisces or Cancer
xia0miLk scribbled at 4:12 pm.
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What Mythical Beast am I??
-=[4th September 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: amused; venue: at home
Your a Unicorn! Unicorns are pure, innocent,
magestic creatures that have a spiraling white
horn growing out of their forehead, and a white
graceful, horses body. Unicorns represent the
sign of purity, innocence, freindship, healing,
rejeventation, and truth. Your horn is rare
prized, but you tend to be naive, lured by a
childs cry. Unicorns are reare, beautiful ans
shy mythical creatures, and you are lucky to be
one.
What Mythical Beast are you?
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xia0miLk scribbled at 3:05 pm.
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What Kind of Soul do I Possess??
-=[4th September 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: blur; venue: at home
You have an animal soul! Arent you lucky! You are
very interactive with animals and can
understand them even if you dont speak their
tongue. The birds arent afraid of you, deer can
eat out of your palm, and every dog will roll
over for you. As an Animal Soul, you follow
your instinct, sometimes making rash decisions,
and not thinking properly. If you dont
understand something, you reject and push it
away, and can get very disastrous when angry.
At the same time, youre a very kind person who
can make people feel better, and are
understanding and compassionate. One of the
great things about you is that your rarely
jealous, and know that you have to share and
help other people if you want to survive this
world. You are very loyal and optimistic, and
can make it through the toughest times.
What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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xia0miLk scribbled at 2:58 pm.
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True Confessions of a Heart
-=[2nd September 2004, Thursday]=-
Feeling: secretive; venue: at home
Hello all! *waves* This is Anna's heart speaking. Yes, the heart that pumps blood around the body system, engine of the red fluid movements. I had crept here quietly to sneak on her while she was sleeping away like a baby. I can't take it anymore. Her emotions are stressing me out. The things she does now are always so sudden. So full of uncertainty.
Currently I am full of scars on me. Each time I get broken, I took my time to heal. She wanted me to heal too. Each time she thought that I got healed completely, she got attacked by the negative forces again. Thus opening up old wounds, and having brand new wounds too. Old wounds do need time to heal. The surface stitches that held the open gaping wounds closed together got fused up, but not the internal. With the pressure and opening up of new wounds, the old ones will need double time to heal. I have always been a very fragile organ. In fact I am the most fragile organ that she has. I get chipped off too easily. I have lost many little bits and pieces of myself already. Through all the chippings, I have shrunk in size, from a big warm passionate healthy heart, I am now shrunken into a small timid sick organ.
Anna is not the kind of strong girl that you see on the surface. But then again, nobody is as strong as they seem on the outside. Everybody puts on this facade on the outside, trying hard to conceal the fragile whimpy inside. Alright, perhaps not everybody, but majority.
Anna is actually just a very simple girl, a simple naive girl who is very fragile. She does not ask for the sun nor the moon. Neither has she been expected to be swept off her feet and be whisked off to some heavenly paradise and be pampered there forever by some Prince of Wales; nor has she ever dreamt of having some riches of the material world. In fact she has never expected much from even friendship. She also does not dream of having some fantasy job or life or expectations. NO no no no no she is just not like this. ALL she ever WANTS is to be HAPPY. It makes her happy when her family, friends, students and any other loved ones around her are happy. Yes that makes her very happy. But she also yearns to be happy on the INSIDE TOTALLY. She can't be happy when she has been hurt constantly, all the time.
Anna is very thankful to GOD for filling her up with his presence and his love. Anna is very thankful to GOD for all the blessings and lessons learnt all these while. She really does. She is also very grateful for the angels that is in her life and also went past her before, one way or another. She loves her kids, her close frens and family too much.
Tell you a secret, Anna is quite strong in some sense, but she also gets hurt very easily. Then a new line will form on me again. She usually gets hurt when people close to her hurts her. It hurts her the most when people she treasure or loves hurts her. Then the crack on me will be real deep. She always hides her hurt. She don't wanna whine much to people becoz she dun wanna bother them. Thus she always keeps to herself. She does open up mostly to Tricia, her closest soulmate, who had seen her through the toughest time. At least she open up everything to Tricia. Even so, she also will select the appropriate time to pour out to Tricia. She will open up to Tricia only when she is sure that Tricia herself is not having any big problems of her own.
Other than her hurt, she is always exactly who as she seems. What you see is what you get. She shows you the truth as who she is. Coz she doesn't believe in hiding what she thinks and feel; she doesn't believe in putting on a fake smile or fake expression; she doesn't believe in pretending to be 'ok' about situations when she is not happy about it. She is always herself; except of coz when she is hurt.
Ok it's getting pretty late, I better sneak back before she awakes. She is being stirred up in her sleep now. If she awakes and find me at her comp, she is gonna scream her head off. Haha!! I will be back for part 2 !!!!
xia0miLk scribbled at 1:43 pm.
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I LOVE THE KIDS (Sec 1/10 2001)!!!!
-=[1st September 2004, Wednesday]=-
Feeling: missing them; venue: where else?
Sec 1/10 of year 2001. That was the year I had this lovely kids. My beloved kids, the last clas for the whole of express stream, the most humane class too. That class happened to be FULL of babes. Yes, pretty little girls. I still remember, on the very 1st day of school, I purposely wore this black "sailormoon" (nick given by Tricia) dress so as to look solemn. My intention was to traumatise them such that they wont play punk with me for the rest of the year, before I open up to them fully. This is especially important when my small petite size and constant smilingly face always makes me a "eat-able target" for students. I am very easily amused thus I laugh alot too. Feedback from a few of the kids regarding the 1st day of school back then, these are what they said:
LiYing: "Miss Hee looked very normal to me leh. Not intimidating at all."
KaiJun: "My 1st impression of you was that I thought you were an ah lian. But after getting to know you better then I know you definitely not one."
Me: "......................................."
Heheheheheh... it started off with speaking in very loud and stern no-nonsense tone. I tried real hard to not smile at all, setting my rules right with them etc. but alas, it didn't work. Coz it is just so NOT ME to be stern and fierce. Soon I was smiling away into my typical infectious huge laughter.
As the days go by, I open up more and more. I loved teasing them. I had arranged them to sit and queue up according to their register number initially. As days go by, I just changed the sitting arrangement according to their ability to stay off trouble in class. Haha!! I taught them, played games with them, I had to apologise to Christine for them, as they really were quite mean to her then. But again I also must thank them for this. Coz if i hadn't do so, I wont have her as such a close friend to me now. =) I remembered we played the really noisy game in class after exams. Everybody were making so much noise. Alvin had to do the pole dance using a broom stick!!! I really had such a great and wonderful time with them! Generally the class was very talkative and hyper. There were a few extra talkative ones in the class though.... and a few... that had left foot prints so deeply in me that, losing their friendship will equalise to losing a part of my body.
Jackson for one, is a hyperactive boy. He is SO Hyperactive! SO talkative! SO amusing! Never fail to make me laugh. Botak head boy. HAHA!! I love to rub his botak head. Loved the spiky feeling on my palm. Haha.
His good friend back then LiangHan, who takes the same M'sia *sings: Malaysiaaaaaaa, truly aaaaaaaaaasiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa* bus with him to and fro home and school, will be chatting with him non-stop.
Azim was my class AV rep then. So cute and small. He was in my NCC(Sea) too. Very committed boy. He often participate in the planning activities together with my then sec 2 kids. He also happen to have a pretty mum and handsome dad. NO kidding!!
Next we have Alvin. Alvin is a horny tall boy, my secretary for the class. The 2nd tallest in class is him. Before the class had even settled down into secondary school lifestyle, he was already influencing the rest with his Sandra Brown novels.
"What's wrong with Sandra Brown novels?" you may ask.... Well I am not being conservative, but having to influence almost the entire class's girls to read the novel that contains alot of sexual connotation at such a young tender age is just so...... = ...
Ok The tallest boy in class is JianMei. This boy is hellaluva computer genius. Man at a tender young age of 13, he already has knowledge of computer that surpassed me by light years! But again, I am an idiot at computer stuffs.... so..... hahahaha ok de truth is he is really cool at computer stuffs.
Then I have KaiJun, one of the prefect of my class. There was once when I got sooooooooooo mad at the class that I really blasted their heads off and had Alvin to pin up alllll their mistakes and to paste it on all 5 walls of the classroom. It so coincidentally that there were 5 prefects in my class and Kaijun had thought that I had 5 done up purposely to poke at the prefects. He then felt hurt and had wanted to conspire up a silent treatment with the other prefects, later to realise that it was only a misunderstanding; That I wasn't targetting the 5 prefects, but to let the entire class see. So that at every wall they turn to, they will be able to see what they had so badly. HAHAHAAH!! I love to associate this incident with him.
Next cutie I have is this china-skinned boy Yeong Cherng. He is so cute! As in, he was so short then, with red rosy cheeks. Geesh such good skin that look like those China kids. So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. He is also a very hardworking boy. Again he is another Malaysian. Frankly speaking, I am most impressed by these Msian kids. Why? Because they travel the long distance to and fro school and home, wake up so early, had to tackle the traffic jam problem and balance the heavy insane school work and CCA too.... Aren't they just something or wad?!?!?
Next I have the lovely girls of the class. LiYing is 1 of the sweet lovely gal with shrieking high pitched tone of voice. hehehehehehh... she is sooooooooooooooooo cute!!! I love to talk to her. SO SWEET! ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE. Her sincerity, cute smile and cute voice makes me so wanna sayang her so much!! This GOD-sent angel had touched my life, Wayyyyyyyyy deep. She is so faithful to GOD. Makes me ashamed of myself. She is my role model for loving GOD too! Well there is this lovely gal by the name of YuWei. She is one of the most mature gal that the class had. She is also talented in arts and is very creative. She is also one of the angels that had touched my life so much. Matured in thinking, she does her best in her all schoolwork. She is also very dedicated to her school councillor work and CCA, which is the school Band. She used to get teased with 1 of my NCC(Sea) boy, Benjamin, who also happen to be quite close to me. Yes they were kinda together for awhile, but alas, I guess things just don't work out the way we want.... so oftenly...
Another creative and artistic gal we have in class is Jasmine. Well she is a very cool gal. Serious. She enjoys soccer, pretty, and is very cool and stylo in her own ways. She has been with her bf since sec1 till now, still going on strong. I am very happy for her.
Lois, is this chinese dancer in my class. Her father is a pastor in one of the churches at Serangoon Road. It was such a blessing to have her around. She is such a sweet thing. She encouraged me to go back to church. I felt so touched. She also wrote those little notes of encouragement or just messages, and pass to me quite frequently. Which all of the notes are in such creative ways. I was so touched. I had NEVER thrown away any of the little slips of notes at all. The notes are ALL still with me, well kept. Heeeee *blink blink*
Gabrielle is a talented gal in the school band. Also a church goer, she has come so far. Bubbly gal, good english. I am also glad to have her in my class. Quite an encouraging gal too! I remembered the co-form teacher, Mr Yeo, will call her by her chinese name, Le Hui, and she will get so irritated and go: "Mr Yeo!! Call me Gabrielle lah. Not Le Hui!" .. hahahahaha!!!
I strongly believe that students tend to get influenced by their form teachers sub-consciously. Whatever character their form teacher is like, the class will somehow, follow suit subconsciously. Thus having a playful-cockster-lame-hyperactive form teacher like me, what will you expect out of my class? Oh you know what??
xia0miLk scribbled at 11:12 pm. (2) Tears of the bear