Saturday, August 28, 2004

I Am Speechless...

-=[28th August 2004, Saturday]=-
Feeling: speechless; venue: at home

Being a teacher in the classroom, one will always yearn for attention in class. Attention as in, the correct type of attention; that is, to pay attention and thus absorbing what you have taught to them. Rite now, I do not know if I should feel complimented or disturbed...

Just some weeks back, I happened to bump into an ex-student that I used to be on very good terms with. (*Note: I have taught before in MORE than one school so do NOT attempt to guess who it is) He was a very hardworking boy and I enjoyed his presence very much. He has this goody-goody outlook that always give me a very very good impression. He was a great help to me during my stay in school. When I first got hold of wind that he was mixing with some bad influence and had picked up smoking, I was very disappointed but I kept quiet about it. He didn't know that I knew about it.

Two days later after the 'bumping' incident, he smsed me, asking me if he could now call me by my name 'Anna' now that we are no longer teacher-student relationship, and for a chat. So obviously I will welcome that chat (I was abit surprise coz though he was a great help to me, he wasn't close to me like the rest of my monkeys).

As we were chatting over smes, he told me stuffs that shocked me awfully. I was so taken aback that I was really FLABBERGASTED!! TOTAL DUMBSTRUCK!! He actually said I was his sex goddess; that he has seen my g-line quite a few times and such... I really didn't know how to react. I was in total shock. The goody-goody religious boy who attend religious classes so religiously had such thoughts about me.. Eventually the usual dumb-pea-brain-me had to act cool and just told him: "I think you are very brave to tell me these." HOW BRAINLESS CAN I GET!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Apparently my answer had actually encouraged him to tell me more..

Over the next 2 weeks or so, this brave boy opened up and told me more and more...

He told me his private stuffs like his sexual cravings etc; stuffs like he having this special liking for me, not love but just a special kind of liking that he has for me; he likes the way I speak, the way I dress, my short denim skirt, my hair with those curls etc (he finds short chinese chicks cute); Me being his moon goddess (*note: moon goddess is from this storybook, where when men see her, they get so horny but yet can't get her so they will masterbuate on the spot instead) etc etc. The ultimate thing came. --> He asks me if I wanna have sex with him. I couldn't contain my shock. My mouth opened real wide but no sounds came out. I wanted to blurt out at least something but still nothing came out. I was dumbstruck. I had temporarily lost the ability to make even grunting sounds. Immediately I rejected the offer. NO WAY am I gonna do it. NO WAY. NO 2ND THOUGHTS. PERIOD.

I still have my own moral ethics. A teacher and student will be teacher and student. The maximum line it can stretch beyond will be being good friends with one another. period. What is a teacher's role in a student's life? To guide them along the growing years, to teach them the correct values and ethics, and perhaps not to solve their problem for them but to teach them how to solve their problem, and along the way, holding on to their hand as they go thru the difficult task. There will always be a line drawn to have that boundaries. It is simply WRONG for a teacher and student to have any sexual relationship. It is just so VERY WRONG. period.

I am not gonna judge him based on what he had confessed to me. He is still a growing boy, struggling with issues of adolesences and sexual stuffs that he may still be exploring. Since he is a male, I guess it is pretty normal that he has this high sexual drive. I am in no position nor right to tell him of what is correct or not correct, what to do and what not to do. Since I am currently also struggling with my own problems and stands. I do not condemn anybody since GOD also do not condemn me.

Hope this silly boy of mine is doing fine in school. I will still be there for him as a teacher and student, or the max, as friends ONLY. I will still be there for him as a helping hand, crying shoulder for him to vent his frustrations on. That's all. GOD bless~

xia0miLk scribbled at 12:49 am.

Comments:

Ever heard of extremes. Normally the ones that don't look the part are often the worst. I.E ur student, LOL that's gotta be scary.


mist

# posted by  Anonymous : 6:43 am

 

Besides, interesting students you have wahahahahahahaha gonna laff my head off for weeks on this wahahahahaha


m|st

# posted by  Anonymous : 6:46 am

 

Yah yah rite rite.... laugh all u like.. I mean I really dunno such stuffs will ever happen. We are still chatting as per normal. But just normal chats. My stand is firm I will NOT sway. NO WAY will I do such a thing. I guess it is a good thing afterall that I left teaching.. wouldn't want more of such incidents to happen again!!

# posted by  xia0miLk : 12:15 pm

 

Chill outz gurlz... goes to show there are all kinds of weirdos around.

m|st

# posted by  Anonymous : 1:05 am

 

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