Friday, August 13, 2004

Very Loved and Warm....

-=[13th August 2004, Friday]=-
Feeling: very loved and warm; venue: at home

Dear GOD,
WaW today's service is soooooooo.... urm ...... heartwarming =) It is my church's (City-Harvest Church) 15th Year anniversary. Right at the beginning after the praise and worship, they presented the different ministries in the church in all sorts of creative ways. Man! Were they creative and funny! I laughed/amused/enjoyed myself sooooooooooo much!! Each of the ministry shows how the church members so willingly to help out in GOD's house, and in doing so also serves HIM. Then we sang the 'We're a family' song... I was very touched... very emotional.. Its been a long time since i felt so... urm.. "belong in the church" .... I dunno... i am now in cg W185.. the feeling is so different.. i dun feel quite 'in the cg' .... i guess its a personal barrier lah. Problem lies with ME. Not them. It was juz soooooooooo different from W36. *Deep thoughts here*

After the entire service, i juz had the urge to sms ONE of my many angels (my kid in school. I still remember that on the fateful Monday of 2002, I just take it anymore but to drop tears during class. That was during class 2/10 and they were actually having a class test then! Liying actually came up to me and gave me her friendship band and also told me that she loved me. WOAH sensing their love for me made me weeped even more) that brought so much smiles and joy to me, Liying, to tell her that i love her. Liying is also a fellow city-harvester. She is a good role model for me to follow in terms of loving and serving GOD. Actually another angel aka good fren, Benjamin (*note: This Benjamin BOY was also my student) is also a good role model for me to follow. He managed to get different friends to attend the special service. Though he had to attend all 3 days of service, he still obliged. Now isnt that something good for me to learn from? I should feel ashamed of myself rite? But NO WAY am i gonna sms him and tell him i love him. Why? BECOZ HE IS A MALE. Though i do have the SISTERLY love for him, I still shouldnt do so. =

(Flashback to year 2000. I am always doing so.)
(Meanwhile in a remote part of the tiny island, SG, in front of another monitor, a fellow reader mumbles: "WHAT?? U have nothing else to blog about issit? Why always flash back?!?!?!!!???")

That was the year I had the Op. Catherine and Evelyn came to visit me. Catherine also prayed for me over the phone when I was in misery pain. I was very touched. I was so touched that I wanted to go back to GOD again. It was very fun then... i still remember the days where I will struggle to wake up slightly early, create excuses just to go church. Then together with a few other members of the cg, we will queue up together, talk cock/laugh hysterially/tease/makefun/(insert in fun activities) alll the way till the doors open. Usually the few people queuing up will be teasing Evelyn non-stop. Hee hee heeee... Poor thing that girl. Then we will all gush in to book seats for our fellow cell group members. heeeeee. Then after service we will usually go out and fellowship for some time, before heading home feeling exhausted. But it was good =) During all those short fellowships really build up alot of bonds among us. During the cell group meetings on Wednesday nights, i always go all the way down to Jurong East, to Grace's house, drained of energy, for cell group. Bro Victor will lead us into praise and worship then thereafter guide us during the 'lesson'. MingKun will usually be the one to play on the guitar. Then afterwhich is fellowship for us.

XiaoFang, Evelyn's cellgroup leader was also very sweet to me. There was 1 service when Evelyn accompained me to. XiaoFang didn't had to go. But she wanted to accompany me too. Though eventually she didnt go coz she was late, but after the service, she was waiting downstairs for us, just to give me a 'pass-it-on' card, where she wrote words of encouragement to me. Now isn't she such a sweet thing? She got married last year and had followed her husband to USA since Dec 2003 for a duration of a year or 2. I am overjoyed for her to have found the person to love and take care of her, for this angel truly deserves it =)

For the past 6mths in TRACOM, i had the W36 cell group's photo in 8R size on my cupboard. I have always loved them and will always do. Though I had left them for about... 3 years? I still am grateful to them and love them too. People like Bro Victor, HaiQi, Catherine, Junior, ChunHwee, MingKun, Shawn, Jeffrey etc. The footsteps that you people had left in my heart is deeply imprinted..

"We are a family that loves, loves, loves, loves one another
We are a family that trusts, trust, trusts, for we are sisters and brothers
Thru sunshine or rain, we're a family just the same.
We are a family that loves, loves, loves, loves one another"

xia0miLk scribbled at 11:19 pm.